Friday, November 01, 2002

Think about it

Engage towards the mind
With matter left behind
worries are your memory
Pain means you have a heart
Respect! well you decide
Fear is what you hide
Love has the longest route
Hate, the shortest path
With hope and faith we struggle
Health our greatest love
Birth is every morning
Death an unknown day

Truth Path
Disastrous perception
leads to this prevention
Truth: a disastrous conception
and lies: it's contraception
produces negative reception
with positive intention
and when every fact is mentioned
forgiveness must survive

Just some stuff I think about
It's snowing right now in the roc, looks beautiful, kind of makes up for the day. Why is truth so hurtful and if it isn't, does that mean you don't have a heart? Why is love so dramatic and why do females need so much attention? ( I ask because there's this couple right now arguing about their relationship and I don't know if they know i can hear them. Personally the chick is hot and her boyfriend is busted so I don't know why he's making a big deal about whatever he's making a big deal about, he should be lucky he's with the chick) Should ugly people just give in to attractive people? Now I know God loves all of us but this thing about hell and being punished forever, that's kind of harsh don't ya think? Is forgiveness what makes humans humane or are there things we can never forgive like betrayal or murder? Physical pain and emotional pain sucks, for me physical pain is the worst since I'm not that emotional. Maybe cloning isn't so bad, I mean think about it, when you get mad at someone and you want to strangle them, get some clones of that person and have fun but only if you think clones aren't real people. Is life really about being with just one person, aren't we being selfish by not sharing ourselves? (By the way the couple is still arguing, this guy really doesn't know how lucky he is, plus she's smart, a medical grad, he's a medical grad too but he's ugly so he has to be smart right? Is all this politically correct? Is there a such thing as an ugly person and a good looking person?) What's a Jabroni? yeah marathonman this is for you. I have no clue why i'm in college. Really no clue, i'm not here because I want to be here so why am I here? Hopefully in a year or so I'll know. Been thinking about a friend of mine lately, well really a friend of my sister's who we haven't spoken to in about 10 years. We went to grade school together from 1st grade to 5th and I was just wondering if she's okay. Her name was Cassie and she had a tough life, at least from the point of view of an 11year old and sometimes I wonder if she's still on earth or if she's making it, or gang banging or whatever. Hopefully she's okay, maybe i'll see her again someday.

Thursday, October 31, 2002

I've had a crazy week, just crazy and I wonder if it's because of Halloween. Had a midterm due, a take home, for BCS and didn't do it. Can I still pass this class, can I pull this off? I'll let you know. Most likely I'll end up dropping it. It's just crazy right now. Had two exams this week and now I have two papers due next week only to have two more exams the week after the week after this week. I've been neglecting music, i've been neglecting the ps2 ( and you know that ain't right), I've been neglecting homework however i'm still able to get 10 hours of sleep ( I have to have that) at least.


Sorry to hear about Jam Master Jay, my heart goes out to his family. It's just a horrible way to go, such a young man, a great man and I'm definitely gonna miss him. When I hear news like this it makes me think about how short life is, about past friends ( are they still alive, are they making it), about family. It's just a sad thing, especially when violence is involved.